My Best Bud.

Dear Mya,

Girlie girl, I love ya so much! You are amazing. You are so smart. You already know how to sing your ABC's and count to 10. Sometimes you miss the number 2, but thats okay! Right now, you are playing with your baby doll, and its just so funny how you talk to her like a little baby and you say the things that I say to you. You are asking her to be nice to you, and you are bouncing her around trying to get her to stop crying. It's so crazy and almost kinda scary on how much stuff you pick up on. It's such a blessing to have someone so sweet to look up to me. I hope that I am the best role model you could ever ask for. I have to apologize for lately getting agitated with you. I think you are going through this phase of just giving me a hard time. The past few nights it has taken so much out of me to kindly fight with you for an hour to get you to sleep, and I have to say that I have slipped a few times and maybe given you a spanking too much times, I just need to learn to have more patience when it comes to plucking my nerves. When I go to work, I just reflect on times I have had with you and I always feel so bad for not having patience and maybe trying to talk to you instead of just putting you straight to bed and getting mad when you don't want to go to bed. But there is also a part of me that doesn't want you to be a selfish person and wants you to understand that I am your mom and you need to listen to me. Its a hard thing to balance out a having soft heart towards giving you spankings and being hard on you and really wanting the best for you even though it doesn't seem like that to you. But I guess that's part of parenting and one day you will understand. I enjoy praying with you every night. I pray and you mumble to God, but I know He knows what you are saying. He knew what He was doing when He gave me a baby like you. And as I am typing this to you- you are holding your baby doll telling her "No, no, no... top it now. You want me to pop your hand? I said no! Top it!" See? You do hear me telling you to stop being a bad girl! Now that I have written you a book, I will let you go. I just wanna say that I love you and I'm so proud of you! You are such a joy!

XOXO.

Love, Mommy.

Proud Mommy!