My 3 year old Princess

Today we had our birthday party at my Mawmaw's house for Mya. It was "Princess" themed and was very fun! Mya & I have wonderful friends and family in our lives :) Thanks to everyone who came! We love you!

And... us singing "Happy Birthday" to Mya :)

Psalms 138:3

"As soon as I pray, you answer me. You encourage me by giving me strength."

For some reason lately, I have had a lot of "what if" thoughts. Things like "What if something happened to Mya and she gets hurt?" or "What if I lose my job?" and every time I do I get a feeling of hopelessness. I feel like if certain things ever happened to me that I just couldn't handle it. Needless to say, I don't need to worry myself over things like this and I'm not really worried about what could happen as much as I worry about how I would be able to deal with it. But it just reassures me that my relationship with God is SO important. The feeling of having no purpose or hope is such a scary place and I don't ever want to be there. I want to know that God has so much planned for me and that anything that happens to me is not too big for Him

Transformed

Playing around with my computer... fun times!

Had a great Wednesday night class tonight! I am so blessed with an amazing church :) Isn't it funny how bad days can make you appreciate the good ones SO much more? It's been an awesome day... thank you Jesus!

So much!

I think I have something on the calendar for every weekend until the end of May!

This weekend- Mya's birthday party with the family & Church Picnic

Next week- Carrie Underwood Concert with friend, Kayla!!

Next weekend- Mya's birthday then Matoaca Prom with church friends & another birthday party for Mya

Weekend after- Just Jewelry Grand-Opening & Mother's Day

Weekend after that- Girls Gymboree for church (Mya is old enough to go!!)

Weekend after THAT- Hosting a Just Jewelry party for work friend. :)

Whew! But at least its all exciting stuff :) I will have lots of updates! So stay posted...

Transparency.

I have a confession to make... I suck at relationships. Here lately, I have really been beating myself up about this. I'm a quiet, shy, person who gets nervous and embarrassed easier than anyone I know. I have a handful of wonderful friends but rarely do I go out of that comfort zone, and talk to other people. Even when someone tries to have a conversation with me, normally I am very to the point and I don't give much input. I'm not sure if its a trust issue I have or if I am just extremely independent. Maybe its even something different? I'm really not sure. I don't mean to seem stuck-up. And I know that even in my own family and to my closest friends sometimes I can seem like maybe I don't care. I do care a lot about people, especially them, I guess I just have a hard time showing it.

Another thing is I am very much a "follower." I unknowingly run away from responsibility. I have been working with a friend of mine in our church doing our youth adult class on Wednesday night, and it has been quite an eye-opener for me. I am being taken miles out of my comfort zone. But I need it, I need this to show me and teach me how to become a leader and accept where God has placed me. I should be stoked that He trusts me with a class, but I'm a nervous wreck every Wednesday. All I know to do is pray about it, so thats exactly what I'm doing!

Thanks for hearing my confessions. May this be the first step in conquering :)

3 year pics

Can you believe Mya will be 3 at the end of the month? It just blows my mind! It's so sad how fast they grow up. Everyone used to tell me that when I first had Mya but now I really understand. Feels like just yesterday we had her "Terrible Twos & Fancy Shoes" birthday party. So to start... here are a few of her pictures for her birthday. More to come after the parties...

Growing up too fast!

Every time I talked to Mya, I can't believe how fast she has grown... I feel like I am talking to a grown person! She will be 3 on the 30th and I'm not too excited about it :( I don't want her to grow up! More worries and bigger problems come along with that! I know that's being a little negative, but I have had a heavy heart for her these past few days. I worry about bad influences and her making bad choices or who she will be or if I am being the best mom I can and how I am influencing her and if I am doing the right things, etc. It's a lot being a mommy! Whew! But with all that said, I am going to show a little bit of the memories I miss...

But I'm sure in a few years I will look back and wish for these years so I need to enjoy the youth will I have it :)

Ain't she cute??