Transparency.

I have a confession to make... I suck at relationships. Here lately, I have really been beating myself up about this. I'm a quiet, shy, person who gets nervous and embarrassed easier than anyone I know. I have a handful of wonderful friends but rarely do I go out of that comfort zone, and talk to other people. Even when someone tries to have a conversation with me, normally I am very to the point and I don't give much input. I'm not sure if its a trust issue I have or if I am just extremely independent. Maybe its even something different? I'm really not sure. I don't mean to seem stuck-up. And I know that even in my own family and to my closest friends sometimes I can seem like maybe I don't care. I do care a lot about people, especially them, I guess I just have a hard time showing it.

Another thing is I am very much a "follower." I unknowingly run away from responsibility. I have been working with a friend of mine in our church doing our youth adult class on Wednesday night, and it has been quite an eye-opener for me. I am being taken miles out of my comfort zone. But I need it, I need this to show me and teach me how to become a leader and accept where God has placed me. I should be stoked that He trusts me with a class, but I'm a nervous wreck every Wednesday. All I know to do is pray about it, so thats exactly what I'm doing!

Thanks for hearing my confessions. May this be the first step in conquering :)