Sunday, November 22, 2009

She must be CRAZY!


Pawpaw came to me and said "You need to get Mya's head checked,
she must be crazy. She is eating grapefruit like its nothing without even making a face!" She loved it! Ate a whole plateful.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Rest of Vacation & Apologies

Pics of the Day 3, 4 & 5 of our vacation adventures!

Children's Museum

Coolest thing- its my shadow against a wall.
The little grains are not real... they are just part of the shadows.



Got our nails done!

And apologies for forgetting my "Thankful Thursday" (vacation has been good, but I'm not used to not having a set schedule - hint: this isn't the only thing I have put on the back-burner this week! cough cough homework) So these are the things I am thankful for:

-VACATION DAYS! Can't believe this is already over. I would love to be a housewife and stay at home with my kiddies!

-Jesus. This week I haven't given Him the time that I normally would, but I can still feel Him tugging on my heart to seek His face. He has given me so much and even though I take my good health, wonderful family & friends, job, car, beautiful daughter and much used iPod for granted, He hasn't taken them away from me and continues to bless me. How I pray to love people like He does.

-Encouraging role models that God puts in my path & those few people that I would love to be one day!

-Night's with my Snuggie, Laptop, Comfy Couch, Mya's books and TV show "Doc." Love being at Mawmaw's house!

-Christmas time traditions and togetherness. How I wish people would always do things together and be this united all year round. Wouldn't it be so cool if we always got together and bought each other gifts just because we loved each other? Some people do. I would love that.

-Savings Accounts that save you on vacation!

-Happy days. My youth pastor said that "Happy" is only when something is "Happening" but how I love to be happy!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Vacation Day No. 2


Good day! We were going to go to "The Children's Museum" but had a change of plans. We actually went to Short Pump mall.
Then we went out with two of my bestest friends- Kayla & Brianna


Mya's furry friend named "Princess"
and yes, she picked out the clothes & bear & name.


Monday, November 16, 2009

Day No. 1 of Vacation


This week I am on "vacation" ...although my "vacation" is being spent at home. So, I am going to spend some quality time with my little Mya.

Today was sort of a get-things-done kinda day. Not very fun and too much money spent for the first day of vacation. I should've had a budget. (Next time, I will know.) We bought her 2 Christmas dresses because Mommy couldn't pick just ONE. And some clothes for Mya. And just other necessities. [Funny story: About three weeks ago, I lost my glasses, so I made an appointment to get new ones today. I was sitting in the car waiting for the doors to open to my doctor's office, and as I look down, laying right beside my driver's seat is my black studious glasses. Not to mention, I cleaned my whole car out last night and didn't even see them!]

Tomorrow will be more interesting! We are headed to "The Children's Museum" and out to dinner with two good friends of mine. Catchya later!


Sunday, November 15, 2009

Update on the dieto




So,

I joined "Weight Watchers" about 2ish weeks ago. The first week, I lost 3lbs. All encouraging, although I can't really see it. Some days, I think I can, but days like Saturday and Sunday... not so much. With baby showers, recitals, church, family gatherings, etc. its hard to keep up the good work. But I'm working on it. Hopefully soon I will have a new photo that looks like an old photo from years ago! (:


Saturday, November 14, 2009

Dialogue of the Day


"Mya, put the chair back under the table;
Mya, stop eating all the grapes;
Mya, put the remote down;
Mya, give me back my phone;
Mya, go play with your toys;
Mya, dont take the DVDs out of the case;
Mya, leave Mommy's make-up alone;
Mya, put the remote down again;
Mya, you need to go night night;
Mya, your driving me crazy;
Mya, again... the remote."

Despite all... we made delich brownies.

Last night, 30 minutes after laying her down to sleep,
she walks up to my bed,
"Mommy, I got a burger. I show you. In my nose."
I tell her we will pick her burgers in the morning.
"Yucky, yucky, yucky..." as she walks back to bed.


Thursday, November 12, 2009

Yay! New fab idea!

So, since Thanksgiving is coming up, an tis the season... I am going to call Thursday's "Thankful Thursdays" and I am going to list a few things that I am thankful for until the end of the year. :) So for this day...

I am thankful for:

-The obvious is Jesus Christ. For taking me so filthy and ugly and loving me anyways. Even in my sin, weakness and insecurity. For always being there for me when it seems like I have no one. For blessing me beyond measure even when I don't deserve the littlest thing he has to offer.

-My job. We have such great benefits and though sometimes I have days where I could scream, overall it could be so much worse. I have great friends and a good foot in the door to my future.

-Scarfs. They are so warm and cozy while also being very cute!

-The song called "Safe and Sound" from Matthew West. For songs say what we really mean so much better than we do.

-Weight Watchers. For they make it so organized and visual to lose weight! ( I have lost 3 lbs in one week )

Stay tuned for next week's Thankful Thursday!



Thursday, November 5, 2009

Goodbye Caress Glowing Touch...


Hello Winter Candy Apple!
New Scent from Bath & Body Works
One of their Holiday Fragrances.
Delicious!



Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Oh, the pressure.

God has really been speaking to me about where I belong. Relationships, friendships, and sometimes even family come and go. In order to find out who I am, I need to look to Him. I belong to Him. He will never leave or forsake me. No matter what I do. I don't need to define myself on who my friends are, who I know, who I hang out with or what my occupation is. It's all about Him.



This past Sunday in Sunday School, our instructor said, "We don't own the things God gives us. We manage them." So when you lose something, it shouldn't be a major crisis because it wasn't ours to begin with.







Hebrews 13:5 "...'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Rather Rough

So. To be completely honest... Single mommy as a teenager/student/full-timer worker is catching up to me. I think Mya has officially hit the "terrible twos." Although, I shouldn't complain because she just passed the 2 and a half mark, so we made it through half a year with no signs of this ferocious disease that takes over your sweet child.

These past few days I have been struggling a bit.

The list of my mommy blues:
-I don't want to be the mom that gets walked all over & lets their child do everything they want. But I also don't want to be the mom that doesn't give them a break. When they just keep acting up and keep pushing your nerves, how do you meet in the middle? I need more patience and time.

-I am so upset that I work night and day to make sure I am doing the best I can for her. Even though I spend my days working and I'm not necessarily with her, taking care of her, if I didn't have a baby, I wouldn't be working full time kicking my own butt. So... needless to say, I feel bitterness towards the person that helped put her here but gets to live their live like she never existed. They get to date and go out and do things that normal teenagers do. They don't have to wake up three times in the night to get Mya's juice or wonder why in the world she peed all over her sheets 2 minutes after getting off the potty or fight 20 minutes to get her to sleep. They take care of her on their terms. They can cancel Halloween plans because they "are tired." They can do pretty much whatever they want. It's not fair.

-I worry that because I have had a baby so young and had to go through so much, if its going to ruin having other kids for me. I feel like I have so much on my shoulders right now, I just can't even imagine having another kid. My desire is to have at least 4 but honestly, I don't know if I can do that. I need to learn to have more patience and to take more time with Mya first. And I feel like there are so many hinderances to me learning those things.

-Hands down, I need help. I don't think I have it in me to keep "disciplining" Mya without feeling like I am hurting our relationship. She is my best friend. And I love her so much, the last thing I want to do is hurt her.

-How do I bring her up to be a sweet, bold Christian girl who is confident and makes the right decisions if I can't say the same about myself? I need to be the perfect example for her, and I'm so far from perfect. I still have growing up to do. I still need to find out who am I. How can she look up to me if I am lacking in the areas that I want her to be great at?


I hate being negative. I love to be happy and make the best of things. But I feel really burdened and I have a heavy heart. So, I'm doing something abnormal for me and just letting it out. I can always delete if necessary, but keep me in your prayers. Greatly appreciated :)